I know I said I'd make a ~proper post but I don't really feel inclined tbh. Everything's the same. Nothing really changes, nothing matters as much as you think it does. I thought lacking in LJ access would be harder than it was. Everything was kind of just the same ( Read more... )

Tiem, I has it. Time to write and sleep and all that good stuff ( Read more... )

I do.

I want to believe in people, and life, and change, and myself. All of those things are kind of connected tbh lol. I want to believe I'm worth saving, that I'm not unforgivable, that when I tell myself 'It's okay' I'm not lying.

Here's the thing. At the moment, in my life, I am so fucking terrified. I'm scared shitless by this interview and ( Read more... )

So... life. It's pretty good tbh ( Read more... )

I love this song so much, and it just completely fits with me at the moment.

I'm exhausted, still. I'm over emotional to the point I want to cry just to get it out, but I'm safe. I'm safe and that matters more to me than anything, tbh. Feeling secure and not being afraid is something which used to be scarce in my life, but now I get to have it, ( Read more... )

Today is stupid.

Too much shit to do in too little time, and of course my avoidant tendencies mean that I'm all of a sudden inspired. Well, it'd be stupid to waste angst so I put it into the next thing I'm posting. It works, but hurting!broken!Bden is a very sad thing.

This stuff seriously isn't even difficult. I just... don't want to, or ( Read more... )

I've come home to get through and sort things out a bit. It's a good thing I did, since David's having a bit of a shit time and if I hadn't come down he'd have just been alone here till Tuesday since Graham and Elizabeth have gone up country to visit one of their sons. It's strangely just so easy to get myself together if someone I love needs me to ( Read more... )

One: I put even more into the wentzett than I thought I did. I'll probably expand on this in a long, emo way sometime, but the whole William/Pete dynamic is not exactly unlike Chris and myself, respectively. Maybe that's why it was so hard to write. It probably would have been easier if I was doing it consciously :P ( Read more... )

( cutting teh drunken ramble )

I'm making a positive entry, of positive things, just because I can and maybe it'll get passed around. That'd be nice ( Read more... )